It's Friday. Since a couple of hours I figured in a downtown cafe, sitting by a window, writing in my journal ... But my wallet is already being empty, there was no confirmation and my stomach began to growl, so I ended up in my home, my desk in front of my window.
I have tried to assimilate what happened in post-camp this week: fatigue, walks under the burning sun, indecision, more fatigue, pain, sleep, talk, coffee, fights, disappointment, desire to be wiped off the map, many questions, anxiety, desire to mourn, knowing that you have to develop patience and love in all circumstances, and discover that it costs too much ... all cost.
Interesting post-campaign, very different from the previous self-characterized by fatigue, but also because it was easier to find happiness and joy.
And just this morning I thought: "I think I'm dry, urgently need water!". It's nice to host, but the dynamics of people receiving home wears too ... sometimes do not you realize, but you toil and you end up like Martha (see Luke 10:38-42). And I think something like this happened: I went with the agenda that was armed, because of differences in the itineraries, the circumstances and I stopped to sit at her feet.
bad!
But today was different. Visited the University on Friday only to see a young woman who weeks ago decided to start a new life walking with Jesus. For almost a month, we sat on the grass at your school to lead a discipleship, we read the Bible, answer questions.
While he was traveling to meet someone, I felt discouraged, I confess, shamefully, I was not expecting much. Was more commitment, but the Lord surprised me. It was an invitation to sit at your feet and remember what is truly important.
We talk about the new birth and spent the first 10 minutes I said to myself: "Father, thank you." She was very animated and motivated, wanting to ask what they did not understand, to share what I discovered ... I was moved deeply when I asked "what did you understood the lesson?" She replied: I've been born again and that this new life is truly, I am no longer slaves but free.
Glory to God! There I was, sitting, looking at Jesus through my little sister, feeling the thrill of knowing we are loved by God, amazed by (re) discover that I am in Him and He in me, we're together forever willing to drink the spiritual milk of learn more, to know more ...
When returning home, I thought "I need to be with Him." I remembered that song that says, "For out of you, I desire nothing on earth, your presence is more beautiful than anything." So I feel now!
This session refreshed me and made me remember why I decided to accept the call the Work. Jesus reminded me that I can not wish for anything outside of Him that fills my being full. And I urged them not to allow circumstances to take me away from his feet and his Word.
Father, thank you for the day so bright. Forgive me because my strength and my heart were elsewhere, toiling and eroding. I beg you to help me remember what is truly important, and you can share it with those around me. In Jesus' name, amen.
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